Past Tense

Its 2015. By looking back at those photos gave me a lil shiver and heartbreak. I don't know why I did it. To know that I'm gonna regret but I don't care what its gonna take and how it gonna break me more in the future. The scar that cannot be mend completely as the wound was too deep. Mistakes can't be forgiven and the memories of it haunts me. I still remembered the time when I was on a trip to Port Dickson with my sister. It was the most painful vacay that I've ever been in my entire life. I almost take my life away but I didn't. To think that there's love ones that still wait for me and love me. I cant be that selfish. Her name is still linger in me. What she had done makes me more in pain. But that's the past. Many ask me, why would I still linger around the past? In my defence, it's just a sharp memory which I could not erase... it's been 3 years already.. and... I guess I'm getting better each day as I decided to put down the past. To know that I couldn't erase or change the past, I just need to keep moving. As for my side, I guess... I've regretted for what I've done and to think about how stupid I was, I just feel like strangling myself for I could not forgive myself.